hate post

I was going thru one of my drawers and I saw some stuff that I couldn't believe I was still keeping. There were some pictures, letters and a few broken plastic toys. It reminded me of one of our Lit poems in school. There was this poem that talked about how love transformed into material things.

Those things I have, had love before but now, they're just plain junk and I'm going to throw them away along with their memories.

away!

On other news, someone's going to get married before this month ends. She's pregnant and twenty and so she has to get married. She's working already so I think there's no big issue there. I didn't get any of those wedding roles and I'm relieved. I didn't want anything to do with their wedding. In fact, I don't even want to go to their special day. I don't like her. That's all. I'm not trying to be mean or anything but that's all I can say. I think I forgot to mention she's my cousin. We still talk when we see each other but it's empty. It's hard to explain. We might have been close before when we were kids, but now, there's just this huge gap between us that I can't even name. If I say it here, I won't publish this post.

On some more pleasant news, I finished reading American Gods by Neil Gaiman the other day.

It was long.

And I think I got used to people asking questions to people who dont give them straight answers.

alone at 11:47 AM (5) comments

Todo lakas

Nahihilo na ako. Ubod ang kabahuan dito, kailangan ko pa isulat. Nag-bora kasi yung kapitbahay namin tapos hindi nila nilabas yung basura para kolektahin ng mga basurero. Iniwan lang nila sa garahe nila tapos yung amoy lumalakas naaaaaaaaaa..ang lakas sobra. Hindi ko naman puede buksan yung aircon parati. Naalala ko yung Tulong Dunong days. Ganitong-ganito yung amoy pagkapasok mo sa public school. Ito na yun e. Parang matamis na malansang isda. x_x

alone at 6:48 PM (0) comments

smash

I went to school the other day because I had to consult something with my prof and I also had to meet a friend of mine which we'll call Mr. Bible. I saw Mr. Bible sitting on a bench near the sec fields. We traded some stuff and tried to catch up on each other's miserable lives. After about half an hour we were talking about how "cool" black people are. At the corner of my eye, I saw one of my classmates in calculus who I'm not really close to, approaching us with a girl i didn't know. I was expecting my former classmate to be the one who would talk to me first but instead she didn't talk to me at all. Instead, her other friend who was a bit nerdy looking was the one who introduced herself. It was one of those stupid surveys again but this one was made for students from my course. They probably realized our course had no future... ;o

While answering the abnormaly long survey I realised that the nerdy looking girl was actually quite cute. I noticed my calcu classmate had already left. The nerdy one had wonderful eyes behind those nerdy emo glasses. She asked me if I had some coursemates nearby. I said I had but they weren't going to be dismissed until three. "Eh kung antayin na lng natin sila lumabas." She then sat behind my bench and gave me this "leave your friend and talk to me" smile. After answering, I gave her the survey then slowly turned my back on her and started talking again to Mr. Bible. I wanted to talk to her alone but if I did that, Mr. Bible might get frustrated. I think she felt it was akward listening to us talk about something she couldn't relate to and so she went back to her other friends across the hall.

Me and Mr. Bible left the sec field benches and went separate ways. I went to the faculty room and the secretary there told me to come back another day because the prof was absent. With nothing else to do, I went back to the bench I was sitting on earlier. The girl was gone, and worse, I forgot how she looked like, except that she had those black glasses. The mysterious survey girl.


If you haven't vomited after reading that there's one thing I'd like to point out. It's something that bothers me when I see a Stress Tabs billboard which you've probably already seen countless times. Their billboards have these "before and after" pictures of people at work. One model looks like she just had the time of her life, while the other one looks like she had turd inside her pants. Basically, the other looks ugly or stressed while the other is supposed to look beautiful. What if... the real model really looked liked the "stressed" version and the visual artists just edited her face to make it livelier and put it as the nice looking one. If that was true, the model probably won't be too proud of her giant poster.

alone at 10:53 PM (7) comments

;o

Three may keep a secret, if two of them are dead.
-Ben Franklin. Poor Richard's Almanack

alone at 12:49 PM (0) comments

grey

Just when I think things are turning out the way i want them to, something suddenly comes up. I guess there's always a catch for everything. I can't have too much fun on anything else because there's always something that would ruin it. But it could also be the "Gulong ng palad" case where there are some hard times and there are some good times. Yeah, I should've tried watching the whole season before it ended, maybe it would have helped me feel a lot better. Anyway, I'm easily dissapointed. I invest too much faith on fragile things. I think that's my problem but I'm prone to it.

The rain doesn't facinate me anymore. I liked seeing dark clouds before. They gave me the feeling of impending doom that doesn't really reach me. But things are different now. They're out of line. GOD, I am SO fucked up.

alone at 12:49 PM (1) comments

bwahahaha

Came from Station 168 and of all the clothes i had, i had to wear the one that looked like their stupid uniform. I wore this collared orange shirt and dark colored shorts. They looked at me strangely as I entered the Korean infested shop. I was just waiting for one of the employees to say something corny. After they printed my brochure one of the cashier ladies just couldn't help herself.

168_girl: kailangan niyo po ng resibo?

ako: ah. oo..cge

168_girl: (hands over receipt) Kung kailangan niyo po ng trabaho, dito na lang kayo sa 168.
(points at shirt)

ako: *plastic smayl*

168_girl2:kung kailangan niyo rin ng model sir. ako na lang.

ako: O_O

Apparently, they thought I was working for Bench. The brochure i had were for Bench because it was the company we chose for our group report. It looked like teh real thing. Thanks to ais's powers. Do I really look old enough to be working? Maybe. damn. I'm really getting old. I don't want to be part of those phony people who say they're "twenteen".

alone at 10:32 AM (2) comments

"ah.. wala dbale na"

Sometimes I'm really happy when i'm able to keep my mouth shut.

alone at 12:39 PM (0) comments

sus

"kahit maperfect mo yung final project F ka pa rin"

-noob M.E. prof

alone at 11:15 AM (0) comments