Monday, November 06, 2006
panic at the bedroom
The panic attack I had a while ago wasn't really worth it. I woke up at exactly 3 am and I couldn't sleep for I could only see my report card when I closed my eyes. It was the torture of expecting something that I really didn't want to happen.
How can I be ready for something that I don't want to be ready enough? On the other hand, I got to watch an episode of Kenan and Kel which I thought was already taken off the air. I missed that show, it reminded me of grade 6.
After watching it, I turned off the tv and all sadness settled in. All alone again in the room, floating in darkness. The small night light seem to have no effect whatsoever.
I even had this short seizure when I tried to imagine what would happen if I failed pe.
The things I think about at 3 am.
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